Pretty Butterfly

Saturday, December 20, 2003

Back to dancing after 1 week rest, its worst then any other day. Starting it is still ok...then come another set of new steps. The new steps boogles me and the dance teacher abit pek chait with me. And feel really "**ck*" up during the process. But after pointing out the mistakes i make, think i did better. Then came the bending of the legs like ballerinas. Wah...that 1 can die doing. Plus i nv exercise for very long, some more the teacher force me to stretch more, can feel the tug and pain as if i can feel ligaments tearing. Of course nv tear lah....sad...then ordeal over....phew...next come gu zhen class, more favourite. But i'm not very familiar of the strings yet when i look at the scores and play. Hopefully can get my very own gu zhen soon. Yah....over this gu zhen issue, got very pissed and irritated with my dad. I told him what happen if i want to buy a gu zhen. He replied saying do u really think u will play after school reopens and not play with it anymore. Then ur money will be wasted kind of rebuttal. Wah, really pissed with what he said. U mean i cannot continue and learn after school starts meh...i must prove him wrong, but how to prove iask u. Meaning buying 1 gu zhen and playing a good piece do i prove myself worthy of my words! My mom is more encouraging which i find it hard to believe. She is usually harder to convince in terms of buying things other then food. So surprise when she said she will pay half for the gu zhen and she requested me to play a nice piece for her when i am better at playing. Haiz...after the arguement with dad my mom just kept quiet and i just did some origami to get my thoughts distracted.

Wah then after the argument yesterday, dad told me eating crab dinner today. I told him weeks ago i wanted to eat crabs. He brought us to Bishan to eat crabs and other dishes. Upon reaching, he ordered 2 chilli crabs, belachan kangkong, fried rice, dried chilli frogs' legs and horfun. My dad even pick some crabs for me to eat and told to be careful when eating and taught me how to crack the shell etc. I felt strange over the thoughtfullness showed by my dad. He's not like that usually..was wondering whether he was feeling bad about yesterday's arguement or to make me feel guilty...sheesh i dunno. But i have to ask again some time sooner.............................

Dreams never come true
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